Resolutions

1) Lose 10 pounds.
2) Write in here more often.
3) Get some readers? (how does one do this anyway?)
4) Stop popping pimples, it only makes them worse.
5) Turn in my applications for ALL clubs.
6) Stop being so goddamn lazy.
7) Practice driving.
8) Make new friends. Honestly.
9) Learn how to steal beer from Kroger.
10) Clean my room. It's horrendous.

Other news:

My cat died Wednesday. Or rather, my mom put her to sleep b/c she was going to die anyway but of course my mom didn't TELL me and just took her when i was at school. Bitch. I cried.

I got the leads in both plays at my school. Hopefully it won't be complete hell this year even though our student director hates me and a certain person keeps talking about how we need to practice our kiss. Gross.

I have the grades to be in NHS! Who would have guessed? I also got nominated for some leadership thing that I have to get interviewed for.

Weekends suck ass. I haven't had a drink in over a week and I eat to much with weed.

I'm fat. Okay, maybe not fat, but it feels like it. I feel so gross and fattyish and I need to fix that.
Weight: about 122... whoa gross. Weight I need to be: 112. And that's not me being anorexic b/c 112 is a healthy weight for my age and height. So is 122 but that's beside the point.

School pictures are next week and I keep breaking out like a mo fo. I never break out! Why now? And my medacine only making my skin red and in alot of pain.

I'm tired of always being the one who gets invited to parties and all my friends just assuming they can go to. And if i have nothing to do, we're fucked.

I need new friends. ASAP.

changing for better or for worse?

We all go through that point in our life, where we change a great deal. Most of us probably go through more than one of these changes. It's just growing up, right?

The summer before my sophmore year in highschool was the first of these changes. I lost alot of friends, but I got alot of new ones too, and the ones I really cared about stayed with me through it all. You lose some, you gain some, I guess.

I'm still changing, and I think it's for the better. Kind of that growing up, making mistakes and learning from them,right? Why does everyone else worry about it so much? Don't they have their own issues to deal with? I feel like I'm always being babied. I just want to grow up on my own, I don't need 398754 parents.

But at the same time... do I need them?

It's only life... right?